paupau's 勇气 and 真挚 have been inspiring.
In a funny way, my memories of crushes I had in secondary and high school were evoked. When I did stupid things like waiting for her at the bus-stop to board the same bus just to have a chance to "bump into" her, even though my home was 2 hours away in the OPPOSITE direction. When I tried to find clues to how much she appreciated my affection in every word she uttered, every gesture she made. When everyone else at school down to the old lady selling fried noodles at the canteen knew and covertly laughed at me. :) Man, it must have been so awkward for her, trying to be just friends with me and yet drop negative hints that I conveniently ignored. I'm glad I was too shy to do something really stupid and embarrass her in front of the whole school. :) Eventually I got over her and had a crush on another girl of course, which also resulted in intoxicating highs of dreamy self-delusion and heart-breaking lows of cold stark reality. All history now, of course, those carefree days where clouds hovered lazily in the sky and waves rolled gently against the shore. Sorry about that girls, you had your chances :), but I'm head over heels in lalaland with this sweet, wonderful girl now. Hope you're happy, old friends, wherever you are.
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